Writing to be read or writing to share…which is it?

And in sharing, does it matter if one, two, many or none would read a word that is shared. It seems it has mattered on those days when I desired a response. It seems to have mattered too often for too many years.

And today?

Am I hiding my lamp on a web page? One or none may come to read.

But is what I write light? Not necessarily or at least, not always.

There is continually that judgment of self...and such a desire to be clear, open, and even understood.

But to have learned over the years, that one understands, yet another does not.

That two may read and appreciate, although another does not.

That some may read, but most may just delete...or file away without ever reading...or some even enjoy reading my writings, yet do not read until a much later time than I had intended...and all of this makes me realize...it is not imperative that many or any read, know, understand...it is only best that I obey the urge to write...as is it is what teaches me best...today.

It is quite humbling...quite revealing...yes, quite needed.

So, the process of writing is necessary to my health.

So the process of sharing also has a place at this time.

And the process continues as I learn when to share and when to not.

And the process continues as I learn to speak (write) or remain silent (public or private).

This process of writing has taught me many things...and one thing is this:

That when I belittle or berate myself too much, it is good to instead just stop and examine myself...

Examine my thoughts, my motives, my attitudes, and my response to others...and then...

Confess, repent, ask forgiveness and receive such...

As the Lord is not through with me yet...oh no, He is not through with me yet.

His grace is sufficient and even more than enough to keep me in this process.